I can’t remember the last time I slept
past six. Black-and-white film
reel days whirl by before suddenly
it’s three a.m. again, my breath twisting
slender and naked in the cold, glow
of the laptop screen ripening
my eyes red like plums. Digital
metronome of young America pulsing go,
go, go. January first: a hollow canvas, blurred
end, still the same car engines
threading sound into the silence outside, same
dirty plates sleeping in the sink
like bodies. There is so much to do and so
little left of me. The laptop’s heat fevers
my thighs, makes them stranger
to the night’s 35 mm film chill. Its finite
frames per second. The couple in the apartment
across the street slow dances in front
of their window, but when I look up again
the building is dark and I’m not sure
what is or isn’t delusion. Tomorrow more hours
will shift in like snow. As they approach
I’ll turn on the lights, fill a glass
of water, quiet myself to meet them.